jaja139

what are your thoughts on letters? i'm not referring to the long ones i'm talking about letters "i'm fine honey. how are you?", handwritten letters. isn't it a shame that we've lost the art of letter writing? to me, letters are the best thing no matter how short long sweet heartbreaking it shows that someone is willing to get a pen and a paper and choose the best and the correct words to write to you. i'm the kid who loves letters. -Ja 2/2/2015

How I wish the night never ends How I wish to talk to you How I wish to be by you side Under the sky so blue. I don’t mind Maybe we could watch the stars Explode million miles away Or maybe together we could runaway. Take me into a deeper conversation Let me drown in it Do it, My ears are with you. Even if somehow You find yourself on the edge of an abyss Then I’ll be the light A road map To guide you home I promise you that. - Ja 7/1/2015 (ideas while listening to "groovy kind of love - Phil Collins'

if i only have 48 hours left i would call close friends and just get to know how their day went have meaningful conversation for the first time in a very long time and i would tell them don't forget to remember me. if only 48 hours left in me i would listen to all my favourite songs and dance under Ahma's chandelier because that is what life's about to dance stupidly under bright light. my last 48 hours i might learn to cook i might not but i swear, i'll cook dinner and we'll eat as a family they'll eat it anyway despite how bad it is because i'm dying. if 48 hours is all i had left i won't be sobbing away or blame how cruel life was yes

"You know what Mak learnt when Mak and Abah first beli rumah?" "What?" "Well, last time Mak was a penakut, just like Kakak. And Mak told Auntie Siew Keng (her colleague) that Mak didn't feel safe in that new house. Yela, some more baru kahwin what." "Hahaha..then what she said?" "She asked Mak, 'you scared of what? Hantu ah?' And Mak said yes lah. Then she said, 'Aiyoh! you can see hantu or not? Cannot right? So why are you scared?! You should be more afraid of things you can see. Someone with a Parang breaking in your house'." "Ceh, touch wood touch wood." -Ja 23.12.2014

to the girl in the venetian red dress wipe that sorrow off your face because it doesn't go well with that beautiful venetian red dress -Ja (19.12.2014)

if you ever come back i will tell you every single thing that you missed we will sit on your favourite couch and spend hours talking because i still remember how much you love watching the news. if you ever come back i will thank you for teaching me how to use the dictionary for teaching me how to say thank you for teaching me the difference between ask and tell for teaching me how to ride a bike for teaching me not to waste thank you for teaching me the little things that matter. sometimes, i do wish you could still give me a hard time shout my name in public like nobody's business take you to places so, if you ever come back there'll be

you ever look at a picture of yourself and you see a stranger in the background? it makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you how many moments of other people's lives have we been in were we a part of someone's life when their dreams came true or were we there when their dreams died did we keep trying to get in? as if we were somehow destined to be there or did the shot take us by surprise just think, you could be a big part of someone else's world someone else's life and not even know it.

we’ve been texting for almost a week and texting with you have been the highlight of my week i find myself waiting for your text and if I let a day goes by without texting you well that day is just no good. - Ja (17 nov 2014)

growing up i have seen so much i watched the good being punished i watched innocent people suffer bad men getting awards pointless demonstration act of defiance against the government i hear people thought of killing themselves but why? "I'm from a very poor family. At one point in my life, us siblings had to beg" "Never in my life I'm away from my family this long" "Both of my parents are divorced" "I grew up without a father. Well he's not dead, I just don't know him" "I have a lot of weaknesses. Please, guide me" and well, that is life. but why not we remember the good things in life? the time you had a baby sister? because that's someth